SugarSpade

stupidridiculous:

It may be that I’m just not a HUGE hip hop fan. I know ya’ll see me post up scans from old Source magazines, but I really post them to reflect on what it use to be like in general, a time, certain places, the colors, the seasons.

When I was younger the only music that I thought I was suppose to listen to, was music from people who looked like me, with the occassional Steely Dan that my mom use to play while we cleaned the house. But other than that, I stuck pretty much with Hip Hop and R n B’. It wasn’t until I got into Jr. High and my parents called themselves moving out the ghetto, that I was surround by more White folks. Not to make this a Black and White thing, but I simply didn’t listen to what I thought to be “their” music. I figured well they don’t look like us, I don’t see them rapping, I don’t go to church with them…nothing. I figured we had nothing in common. As if R n B’ and Hip Hop belonged to us…and the other genres was their thing. That was my young thinking.

Maybe I started listening to other genres because I wanted to fit in. It sucks to have a music conversation with people who don’t even know the type of music you listen to. Or to hear your teacher call rap, “CRAP” without the “c” in front. Or to watch television commercials jokingly use Hip Hop to promote something. Watching some retard dance and rap using rhymes that were just embarrassing. I don’t know if some of ya’ll shared the same feelings, but when I was younger, all those things collectively made me think that non-Black folks saw us as total jokes.

It wasn’t until I got older that I understood that those that didn’t like Hip Hop, most likely didn’t even listen to it, or cared about feelings, wants, likes, needs, or struggles of a majority of people. Maybe that’s what hurt the most. I may not have been able to personally relate to a lot of the songs I heard, but I knew someone personally, who did. Yanno? It kind of felt like a big “fuck you” without someone saying it.

I got older and Hip Hip became more widespread, but then I felt that I couldn’t relate to most of it. It wasn’t feeding my soul like it use to. R n B’ is going through some type of phase. Whatever the case, I started finding other genres, bands, people, whatever. Then I had to deal with some Black folks who thought I was listening to “white people’s music”, as if I was just going through some phase or trying to appear cool in front of my peers. I really just liked the shit I was listening to. It no longer was “our music” and “their music”, for me.

So either I just got older or Hip Hop started to “slip”. Either or I’m glad it happened.

That’s all I wanted to write, I guess.

I think you just got older. To many people limit what they should like or listen too. I used to get that “white music” comment all the fucking time, cause the motherfuckas I grew up with were assholes.